It was a cold chilly night. Once again we had no heat in the trailer. We were all bundled up in one room with a electric heater going and snuggled up in blankets. I didn’t understand at such a young age why we never had all the things we needed to just survive but I did know that I had visions in my head of it not being like this when I was older. I was tired of being cold, hungry and feeling like a charity case to anyone and anywhere we would go. Every Christmas was either no presents at all or we would have the charity from the churches. I just wanted to feel like I could have something and that I earned it. I wanted to know that I would never have to worry about if we had heat or food the last week of the month. All I wanted was security.
This was so hard to understand when I was little. Now I get how we can get in a rut with our thinking and never leave the comfort of that space. It does not surprise me that people live in the same way as they have seen. What makes one different? What makes something change in ones person’s life but stay the same in others.
I think it is all about our mission when we come here on earth. I think that we are all on this planet as spiritual beings being human so we can learn and grow. Some of us have the mission to change things and learn and others have the mission to stay in a space until we want it to be different and that is part of our learning experience. Are you tired of the way your life has been? Do you feel that you would like to make a change and don’t know how to?